It’s not working. it is not a replacement for cutting. it truly isn’t.
Sometimes… I just want to break down flip out and spaz. I don’t really have a reason. My head always hurts. When I think of talking about it, I feel weak and frustrated. I can’t focus on anything, making decisions is harder than it should be, and im angry.
Im just not where I want to be. and I’m tired of waiting. I’m always waiting because acting has only ever made the wait longer.
What’s worse? Death, or waiting and seething for hours days weeks years. I don’t want to do this anymore. I’ll wait another year for change because I’ve heard I’m quite close, I’ve only just made it to 18, so I suppose that’s reasonable in this insufferable existence. 18 years of bullshit for more waiting.
hangover and Reggae
Peace love and growth
THE NORMAL FRIDAY MEETINGS :3